Or is this all an illusion and I'm I suffering from delusions?
I think it's a mixture:
- Some of what you said agrees with what I understand of Buddhism
- Some of what you said seems to me to be delusions
These kinds of thoughts seem to me to be delusions:
- my thoughts influence everything around me
- last night I couldn't even watch a movie because I was paralyzed by the fear or thought of having a negative influence on it
- I have this fear lately sometimes to watch the live news also fearing that I might in some way influence the newsspeaker with my nervousness
And from a comment:
- Your awareness and state of mind can be felt by other people, just as if you might have the feeling that someone's watching you, you can sense that also or when ur high on pot, ur surroundings well sense this.
I think these are symptoms of what people call "paranoia", and possibly "drug-induced psychosis".
If this state of mind is persistent (which you say it is), if it bothers you (which you say it does), if it interferes with your life, IMO you should tell (complain of) these symptoms of mental health, to your medical doctor.
Conversely the following statements have some correspondence in Buddhist doctrine (i.e. even if they're not Buddhist doctrine, they remind me of something that is).
we influence everything with our thoughts
This sounds like the start of the Dhammapada:
- All mental phenomena have mind as their forerunner; they have mind as their chief; they are mind-made. If one speaks or acts with an evil mind, 'dukkha' follows him just as the wheel follows the hoofprint of the ox that draws the cart.
- All mental phenomena have mind as their forerunner; they have mind as their chief; they are mind-made. If one speaks or acts with a pure mind, happiness (sukha) follows him like a shadow that never leaves him.
I think it's not that you directly influence other people (or movies) though; it's that you influence your own mental state (mental phenomena): including feelings, perceptions, formations, etc.
It's to that extent and in that way that we "influence the universe we live in".
We can also have some on affect other people, but I think that requires actions (not just thoughts); so for example Buddhism recommends the Five precepts (for everyone, not just monks) so that you're harmless (don't cause harm).
N.B. that the fifth precept probably advises to stop being "high on pot", see for example How do different traditions define "intoxicant"?
You also affect people (and yourself) by giving gifts and practising generosity; by right livelihood; by accepting good advice from good friends, and avoiding bad advice from bad friends; and so on.
our universe is refreshing every millisecond
I think that's Abhidhamma doctrine (which I have tended to avoid, I started with the Suttas instead) -- see for example this answer.
I think that's not "the universe" refreshing, rather it consists of "mind-moments" or the process of consciousness.
I haven't investigated that doctrine, I'm not sure that the purpose of it is.
Buddhism is often described as a Middle Way between extremes. Perhaps it has some practices or doctrines, for people for whom the world seems too real; and a different set, for people for whom the world is unreal (who don't have a solid grasp of "reality").
Also does Buddhism believe in different dimensions?
Yes and no.
I think that Buddhism teaches that other "realms" exist, e.g. various "heavens" and "hells", and "ghosts", and the animal world.
I guess that partly to explain the workings of karma ("what happens to bad people, especially after they die?"), and partly because some people (and/or some scriptures, doctrine) say that those realms exist.
I find it better to understand that realms as being states of mind (e.g. when you're confused and anxious and so on that's a bit hellish, when you're greedy or unrestrained, unthinking, that's maybe animal-like).
So it's entirely possibly that my awareness does influence a news speaker?
I don't think so (that sounds to me like a delusion), but I do think you can affect on your own awareness.
If you stop watching the news, for example; if you make a new habit of not watching the news ... that won't make the speaker (the person) disappear, or anything ... but they (the sense-impressions, memories) will fade from your awareness (and may be replaced by however else you start to spend your time instead).
I think that what's called "guarding the senses" or "guarding your own mind" is a fundamental practice; see for example these answers: